I remember when I first
started seeing these flyers for the hosting program.
The needs of the kids
overwhelmed me.
Most things I had never heard
of, and honestly I could barely pronounce half of the words.
And then I watched this
hosting program in action.
First I watched my best
friends host 2 children from the Philippines, who soon became their son and daughter.
My first experience to really
participate was 2 years ago. We had barely stepped off the plane with our 2
newest children and so we did not do much.
Besides entertain some
chaperones during which time we managed to allow their passports to get stolen
out of our van.
I don’t care to remember THAT
story to much…
The 2nd hosting
experience was of course this past month.
You know I have done a few
things with China stuff besides CZ. But that is my heart, my family where I
KNOW that I know that I am supposed to be.
So I have probably in some
ways “snubbed” any opportunities to work anywhere else.
Much of that because I am
OVERWHELMED by the needs that are in CZ. How can I possibly open my heart up to
ANYWHERE else?
And sometimes just because I
have visited other places there that I have not felt the tug, that our team is
REALLY needed there.
But then this hosting
experience, it stirred something in me.
These children that came. I
can’t get them off my mind.
I know what it is like for ME
when I leave China. I struggle so much.
So what is it like for them.
They have had a taste of life in a family.
They have had food, and clothes
and toys and fun.
They have been loved deeply
and hugged and kissed on.
And now they are back to the
orphanage.
That breaks me. And I know it
is breaking all of the mama’s hearts who had to put them on that plane.
The ones that I am really
struggling with are those not chosen.
Right now 9 of those children
have families who will begin the process to bring them home. They will move
heaven and earth to get it done as fast as possible.
Lord willing by this time
next year those 9 will be back here, with the people that they know and who
know them.
But 4 of them still wait.
2 MIGHT have families.
So I am going to concentrate
on the 2 who don’t.
First up is Samuel.
100% Boy.
He is full of energy and my
house got a GOOD workout in the hours he was here.
Not going to lie, he was
busy.
But then he climbed in bed.
And I tucked him in, kissing him goodnight.
He woke up so calm and sweet
and he clung to me at the airport.
I thought of that saying, we
can’t judge a book by it’s cover.
And that is what I think with
Samuel. He overwhelmed me upon meeting him.
But then I got to see this
little spirit inside of him that snuggled in and could see all the love he has
in him and I know that a family would fall in love if they can see that part of
him.
We see these photos on a
flyer, we read the list and we are SCARED.
I remember reading about
Noah. His list was the longest, his picture a bit scary.
And then I met him.
I told Mark, how can anyone
say NO to him? What is the big deal, he needs an eye lift and yes his “special
needs” list is long but WATCH him and look how sweet his kisses are and listen
to his raspy voice!
Mark said, “you are seeing
the child and not the needs,
some people can’t do that.”
That is truth.
Sometimes we get so wrapped
up in the list that we forget to see who these children really are.
We forget that God created
them PERFECT in His eyes.
Noah’s family DID find him,
praise the Lord.
But Samuel is still waiting.
And so is Aubrey.
Aubrey has major vision
issues. And I did not get to spend a ton of time with her.
She was nervous with the
change of moving from her host families to our friends for the night.
But once her host mom left we
actually saw her start to run around with the kids and giggle and smile.
Here is what my friend who kept her for the night said..
"Aubrey is very bright. She can speak 2 languages, Mandarin and Cantonese. I was shocked at how many English words she had picked up while being here. She was given glasses for the first time ever and they are really helping her so much. She is very smart, so polite and has so much love to give."
I wish we could make these
children come alive for you. I wish we could show you more than a photo and a
“list”.
They are so so much more than
that.
There is so much hope and
love and sweetness wrapped up in them.
God has given us voices for
so many different reasons.
I pray that I can use my
voice well to share these children. That I can tell those chaperones who came
that your child WAS chosen. They will be loved and that this trip you came on
was worth all of the travel and stress and unknowns and being away from your
own families for a month.
I pray that we can show even them they are more than a list. They are a loved and treasured son and daughter.