Saturday, June 28, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Sage June 26th, 2007
Sage June 26th, 2008
My friend explained referral day as kind of like an ultrasound for those pregnant. And I think that is a great way to describe the feelings. Walking in, knowing you are going to get a glimpse of your child! Yet for me, I walked in with so much less fear than into those ultrasound rooms. I was a fearful pregnant mama. Always anxious. But when I walked into that room to get my referral of Sage, there was no fear. Well maybe a little bit of fear that I was going to pass out before they handed it to me! ;-) If you remember, we had no idea if we were getting a boy or girl, as we had said we were open to either. Of course we assumed it was a girl, but they really DO have boys in China. So we just did not know. It really was a feeling I can’t even describe when I finally saw that picture. One I will never, ever forget. And today, I am filled with sweet memories of that day. Pouring over every tiny detail of those photos and her report. Finally a glimpse of the promise God had given to me, a child that He was holding in His arms.
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Sweet little sad face waiting for her mama
This is the group from our agency that is waiting
She just looks SO sad doesn't she? Oh she needs her mama that is for sure.
And she needs some PINK on! And hairbows, we need that girl to be in BIG bows. I wondered why all the other girls are in pink besides Ms Mavery. My friend said it must be her tutu is at the cleaners. ha! It must be to convince her daddy that it is ok for her mommy to be doing LOTS of shopping for his newest princess??
We are thrilled, to get a glimpse of her it does the heart good. It just looks like such a clean, good place. The children all look healthy and well taken care of.
Did you notice on the video at my friends blog, she is not staying there to sing? And in the one photo, they are trying to make her sit down? This is supposed to be the easy child, I don't like seeing Sage like behavior there! ;0)
As for the medical "stuff"... The stuff I am just trying to ignore and pretend that it is all just perfect, as I pray it is! We sent 2 letters to china. One from our primary, who was not very helpful to me and was just being a doctor I suppose. One went today from our specialist who was being a christian doctor, it was amazing and perfect and if you ever need an ear, nose and throat dr, call me. He is unlike ANY doctor I have ever met. Anyways, both letters are going and we are just going to pray. Our agency sees no problem and we are just going to believe that. We appreciate your continued prayers as we wait.
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Sunday, June 22, 2008
Shane & Esther at the Lake
Me & Esther (we attended a wedding for a couple in my church)
mom, Eshter & I
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Thursday, June 19, 2008
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Monday, June 16, 2008
Part of me wants to say, yippee, they are going over our dossier, we are being reviewed! But the bigger part of me is scared.
Part of me wants to say my faith is stronger than this. That I am simply laying this down at the feet of Jesus and trusting He is going to take care of it. But the bigger part of me only looks back at all the struggles we have gone through from day 1 of this adoption. NOTHING has gone MY way, from the day I laid eyes on Mavery.
Part of me wants to say, that Mavery is mine and NOTHING can stop that. But the bigger part of me is really, really in panic mode here.
Today when I got this call, I was on a church field trip w/ the kids at the City Museum. What I wanted to do was just find a dark cave there(which it is full of) and have a good cry and maybe even a little shake my fist and stomp my foot kind of talk w/ God. But I could only cry out in my heart. And over and over God whispered, "You are forgetting who is in control here. You still think it is YOU who is in control."
But I LIKE being in control! I NEED to be in control! I am GOOD at being in control. Aren't I??
Maybe God needed me to get that call, so I would remember the One who has even allowed me to fall in love with this child.
Maybe He wants to remind me, that I will ONLY hold her, because He says I will.
Maybe He is trying to tell me, Trust ME. Grow in Me. Love me more and believe that I will take care of this.
These are the things I want to believe, I really do. So please pray with me that I would have peace about this. I am reminded that just days ago I blogged about trusting His plan. So I am trying. One thing that has never wavered from the day I laid eyes on Mavery, she IS mine. I do not doubt God on that one. She IS my daughter and I will do whatever it takes to bring her home.
My friends who have adopted have already cheered me on today saying, Review, already that is GOOD! So I am hoping that is true. That our letter gets there in the next couple of days, and I get an LOA with amazing speed! Wait, no, what I really hope is that I can lay it down, trust in Him and Believe that His timing is perfect.
On a happy note, my friend is traveling to China on FRIDAY! Her daughter is with my Mavery and she is going to visit the orphanage! So she has promised to do everything she can to get her in her arms.
Lots of blogs I need to post to catch up. Will try to get them in this week.
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Tuesday, June 10, 2008
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Friday, June 06, 2008
If she is not able to sleep, she will stay up all night planning out her entire trip to China, that is still months away.
If she plans out her entire trip, it will remind her of how truly amazing China is and will make her try to figure out how to see as much as she can in a short amount of time.
And all that planning of being on the other side of the world will also remind her that she is leaving her kids for 2 weeks.
That will get her nervous and sad and wonder how they are going to do with out her.
So then that will take more planning because she needs to get them little gifts to open while she is gone.
And so when she makes a list of the little gifts, it will remind her of all the other things that she needs to get done.
She will add about 10 pages on to the already LONGGGGGG list of things to do before she leaves for china.
She will then get in panic mode and think about how her list is now 18 pages long and she will go to China in possibly 3 months.
She will look at her list and see what is not so important, but in her state of mind think that even cleaning under the stove & behind the refrigerator must be done because her new daughter can NOT come into a house that might have hidden crumbs somewhere.
And thinking of the kitchen will make her add even more on to her list because wouldn’t it be great to have a ton of frozen meals on hand for the grandparents and herself for when she gets home?
Which will lead to thinking of coming home on the plane with a 2 year old, on a 14 hour flight and she will be reminded of why she is not taking 4 other children w/ her.
Coming home will also help her remember that she will be coming home with an angel, that God surely has had on her heart since He first planted adoption there.
And that will lead her to her knees in thanksgiving to God, for the miracles of adoption, the miracles of children, and the miracle that she is able to have these FIVE gifts from Him.
All Because you gave a mom a LID!
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Thursday, June 05, 2008
5/23, which is what we prayed for. It is the day after our paperwork landed in China!! So now the offical countdown can begin! We are hopeful to travel in September, leaving maybe even late August. That is our prayer. Please pray with us that things would continue to move along. The next thing we wait on is our Letter of Approval. (LOA). This means that China has said yes and they will ask us if we still want to adopt Mavery. This seems to be coming to families anywhere from 50 to 100 days. We are praying for shorter, you know we are! Nice to know that 14 days are already down!
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Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Some have asked if the reports we get from China are true, or if they just check boxes and send you random information. And that is what I thought they did BEFORE I brought Sage home. Well, after reading Maverys report, I have gone back to Sage's report and this is what it said of Sage-
RESTLESS & ACTIVE!
I do not think we need to say more on THAT subject!
I thought this comment by Amy from my last post was perfect as I was thinking of these reports.
"She is one step closer to home! We can't wait! I like the comparisons between Sage and Mavery:
Mavery sleeps in a crib Sage is an expert at escaping from cribs
Mavery uses a big vase to pee in Sage might need to try using a vase to pee in
Mavery uses a regular cup to drink out of Sage uses anyone's cup but hers to drink out of
Mavery doesn't like to be left alone in a room Sage SHOULDN'T be left alone in a room
Mavery loves to swing Swinging is one of the only things that Sage doesn't want to doI'll stop there. :) I am so excited to see how God has put these perfect girls together to be sisters. They are both so precious and we can't wait to get Mavery home!!! "
It is going to be fun around here, there is no doubt about that! And we can't wait!!!!!
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